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A New World....

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Once you've entered into the world of opiates, you begin to notice details of your surroundings that you were previously oblivious.  I live in a medium sized city in the Mid-Atlantic/Northeast, and in a more "urban" environment like my own, it is easy to notice the discarded evidence of this world's inhabitants.  On any given day, I can easily spot multiple discarded heroin bags upon the sidewalk, torn open Suboxone sublingual strip wrappers, and at the very least, the brightly colored orange caps from disposable syringes, if not the whole "rig" itself.  Prior to my baptism into this alternate world, the detritus of such drug use would have been as invisible to me as the homeless man laying on the sidewalk to bourgeois city dwellers.  How, exactly, did I gain admission to this world you may ask?  Well, it truly was a combination of several important personal and environmental factors that came together at just the right moment in a serendipitous way I refe...
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Welcome to Dark Side of the Spoon , a candid journey into the life and mind of an opiate aficionado [and addict].  Leave all your assumptions behind, because this isn't going to be a story of recovery, of finding god, or jesus, or whatever, and it certainly isn't a story of regret or shame....I regret nor am ashamed of anything I have done, continue to do, or will do in the future, and I realize for those NA/higher power types, they're not going to want to hear such things.  Contrary to the popular perception of an addict, especially of an opiate addict, I've never been arrested, never stole, never lost a job, and never alienated my family or friends....I'm, what I consider, an exception to the common perception, and while I will, at length, detail the differences between my behavior and actions to that of an "out of control junkie", I'll be the first to condemn said behavior by other addicts.  It is my firm belief, that addicts which resort to c...